Meaning behind 'Black Hearts Scarring Darker Still'

Assalamualaikum w.k.t,

Semua sihat kan? Kalau x sihat blom tentu korang boleh msok sini kan. Tapi x kisah la macamna pon. I tried to post in malay, but see here, too much short form. Maybe sebab dh biasa sgt taip bahasa budak2 kan. Buts its okay, this is all a process of learning. I know i kinda lack in reading. Its my obvious dramatic weakness. But i know i had potential to be very rajin in writing since i kinda person likes to express my thoughts vigorously and sometimes, it can be brutally.

I know my lacking in reading is not supposed to be doing. And i take action to fix and change my weaknesses. I wanna be a person with deep knowledge, adapt to current situation, aware of political instability, and many more in various aspects and fields. And of course i won't writing with vain, and i won't provide information that goes without valid actual fact. All my writing will be of a deep investigation and studies on the things that i might be sharing. Beside that, while writing, we are all can improve our language, pronounciation and so many more. So why not, right?.

Okay, sebelum tersimpang jauh. I wanna share something here about meaning behind my blog's name. And rasanya mesti tertanya-tanya kan  kenapa la tajuk blog si minah ni pelik sgt, ape yg hati hitam sgt kan? But dun you guys worried, there is no bad intentions or darker stories to be shared here. And i bet all metallica fan boys and girls know the meaning already. And those metalheads yang dh lama dalam underground music scene, mesti dh biasa dgn band2 yg legend mcm metallica ni. Here i provide the origins which lines of lyrics which the title of my blog comes from:

The Unforgiven II - Metallica

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still but she'll never love again
She lay beside me but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black hearts scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone, dead sure she'll be there

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

Yeah, what I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there
'Cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

Yeah, what I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there
'Cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you

Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
(So I dub thee unforgiven)

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known
I'll take this key and I'll bury it in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free, never me
Because you're unforgiven too

There you are the lyrics. These lyrics has deep meaning. And i choose to use that bolded line to be the title of my blog. 'Black Heart Scarring Darker Still' which is much more poetic. We are all have no need the heart to be darken, damaged, get hurt and so on. The life is choice to make, whether we want it or not, it happens anyway. If i am a monster, why dun you kill the man that made me a monster. Other people bad intention somehow kills our heart, kills the wise inside us.

Hahahahha. Im mumbling too much. And thank you.

My first writting

This would be my first time writing a blog. I kinda like to write everything comes into my mind. This ideas of writing a blog comes when my friends ask me whether i have my own blogger account. But that time i was just giving excuses to him on why im still online on the web. Why the hell i should tell him that im a person who likes to go online right? Since there is plenty of things going on in a women's mind when they need to occupied their spare time, i was just giving excuses.

I read on the web on how to create a blogger account. Thanks to that person, it seems that creating a blogging account is not so hard actually. I am writing this as soon as my account just completed. I kinda likes to write in english. I don't say that my english is the best of all or anything at all. Just if there any flaws, mistakes or anything at all just let me know. I would open my mind, heart and etc to accept any comments or feedback from readers. So in time i might as well write in malay language.

Last but not least, not forgetting to introduce myself. I am just a cool girl from perak. Twenty two years old, middle-child, still a student currently and not yet married. With pathetic economic condition of malaysia today, it is quite uncool to be unemployed instead of employed. Cause upcoming economic condition of malaysia is still blurred, i kinda feel like being students is either wasting and hopefully maybe not.

Okay, i dun want to write to much. Just want to make this official. Must end it here. More to come, i will be writting again soon. Thanks for reading my not-so-cool first post. Thanks.